What is a relationship?

What is the first thing you think about when considering a relationship:

1. Money
2. Sex
3. Friendship
4. Career
5. Whether your pet cat likes him??

Well… in the beginning it was sex for me! I mean, I have to know if we are compatible I don’t want to have to fake an orgasm every time he tries to do his business and lays on top of me one minute later….. Eish! I mean, sex to me was how to end an argument, the perfect present when you forget a birthday and even how to occupy those boring rainy days! Sex is the PERFECT TOOL. Boy was I in for a shock!

It started off with a glance in his direction then we exchanged a few texts and before I knew it, I had met the love of my life. Sounds like smooth sailing yeah? Nope! He hit me with the “no sex before marriage”. Wait? What? Hold on, did I hear correctly? I actually burst into tears and I remember thinking “Is there something wrong with me?” A guy wanted to be with me… just me! Spending time with me loving who I am and all I could worry about is if it was because I was not attractive! I wasn’t interesting! I wasn’t fun to be around! I told the same stories and the same jokes. There was nothing new… well so I thought. My tool had been successfully confiscated. HELP!

I can’t lie that this lifestyle was my choice. HELL NO! But I can’t help but think it was fate. I had recently broken up with my ex who had cheated on me with multiple women.  I mean… they were all shades and sizes as long as you were a woman he was interested. This journey I was beginning will help me gain back my confidence k now that I actually was interesting and bubbly. I was a catch! And so it begins. This is my story.